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I had another emotional break down today (two weeks of stress and heavy depression), so I'm going to try and balance things out by finally writing about what I want my life to be like.

First off I would graduate from high school, and not by the skin of my teeth. Next I move out of my parents' house, still in the same town though (if I don't get accepted to college right away). Move in with either my ex-girlfriend (using that title cuz i can...nothing negative meant by it), or my boyfriend (I have issues about it that I'll discuss later). I really want to spend my entire summer goofing off; going camping, playing video games etc. Well, only when I'm not looking for a job. I want to work my a** off until the next school year, and earn tons of money. And of course, experience the difficulties of being out on my own.

This is where things get a little hazy. My boyfriend goes off to college in the fall of 2008, for sure. I've just always assumed that I would be in school by then as well. For the sake of this fantasy, let's say I do. And better yet we both end up going to BCIT. I would defiantly be living with him by now.

Here's where things get really hazy. After we are both finished school, I hope to marry my dear childhood sweetheart. And the rest is a more or less a vegue daydream...Travel the world...um...that's about it. If that happens I'll be very very happy. Especially since if it doesn't, I'm most likely to spend my days in a mental institution (not really joking).

arrow I am completely aware that this isn't exactly realistic
arrow I am also aware that I have little other purpose in life than to follow this path...