this has been one of the best days ever. It started like any other but Laura was having trouble sleeping and wanted me to stop by. I was afraid at first but decided to take a chance and just there straight from work without stopping of a change of clothes (yeah that was dumb of me, my uniform absorbed the smells of the casino. Beer, cigarets etc.) well I got a little lost getting there but it was worth it when I saw her smile. We cuddled for a wile, as she tried to sleep but she was a little nervous around me, though after the movie she watched with the graphic rape scene it was understandable. Though there was no reason to worry the furthest I had hope to get anytime soon was just a kiss. Hearing her rapid nervous breathing made me want to comfort her more. Well after a wile we went to find her friends to do some pumpkin carving, only one person showed (at least wile we were there) so it was postponed. We went back to her room and watch a DVD. I was laying close to her holding her hand, my mind was torn in three directions. One was the movie, the second was the warm feeling of her hand and her body next to me, the last was thoughts of kissing her. After the movie we talked for a bit and then we cuddled and fell asleep with her head on my chest. The feeling from it was so comforting and pleasant that I fell asleep thinking that I could enjoy doing this all the time. I’m not sure what will happen in the future but I do know that even if we don’t end up together that I will be her friend and help her find happiness, even if it is without me.
After that I had to leave to goto work. I was a bit tired and almost fell asleep at the table. Well at least on Sunday I don’t have work afterwards so I can spend as much time with her if she wants. Hopefully we can cuddle all night long.
Alaric C Community Member 
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