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This entry will be my poetry...from years ago or to the present. so there.

I wrote this a few days ago...feeling angsty. It's the first thing I've written in a very long time.

Untitled - 3/2/05

We need to stop meeting like this
Running into each other
In dark, smoky concert halls
With a casual smile
And casual conversation
Struggling to think of what to say

We need to stop meeting like this
Because I find myself wondering
Who those other girls where
If they love you
(I'm prettier than them)
And if you feel the jealousy, too.

We need to stop meeting like this
Looking around at the crowd
Searching for your face
Trying to be non-chalant
Hoping we'll lock eyes for a moment
Are you looking for me?

We need to stop meeting like this
'Cuz I'm supposed to be over you.
And I hate wondering if you're
Thinking of me, like I am of of you
Or if your embarressed by me
Or, even worse, if you don't care at all...

We need to stop meeting like this.

This one was one I wrote for the same person...over a year ago.

Goodbye ?/?/04

This poem is to say goodbye
I want you out of my head now
I want to forget what we had
But I can't figure out how.
I'm tired of your face still lurking
In my heart where it doesn't belong
I've let it stay for quite some time
But now, it's been far too long.
you don't deserve to be in my head
Or the smiles I gave to you
You don't deserve the anger I felt
Or my tears, when we were through.
This poem is to say goodbye
Please leave my heart alone
I no longer want to remember you
Since you left me on my own
For your memory still brings me pain
And dare I admit it, makes me long
For days, long ago, we spent together
Even though I know it's wrong.
I miss the nights we'd go out together
Or stay in and play that "truth" game
But then you left me, without a word
And you were the only one I could blame
So this poem is to say goodbye
I no longer want to love you
I no longer want to miss you or care
But I don't know what to do
I don't need your memories anymore
They only confuse my heart
I no longer want to admit
That I wish we weren't apart
This poem is to say goodbye
I am no longer so naive
I won't cry another tear for you
It's time for you to leave.

One more for now...I like this one.

Frank ?-?-04

Nothing has ever quite compared
To the way I felt that night
When we were laying face-to-face
With our legs entangled tight
The way your eyes would sparkle
When you would see me smile
Or the way that you would make me laugh
When all my troubles would pile
I would love iceskating so fast
With my hands around your waist
I would always look at you
And wonder how your lips might taste...
Nothing has ever quite compared
To the pain I felt that day
When you told me you were leaving me
And nothing could make you stay
You said that we had hurt our friends
And didn't want to hide from family
My heart screamed out in anger and pain
And said "How stupid can you be?"
"Don't you feel this love I feel
When you look into my eyes?
Are you going to watch, uncaring
As this lonely heart withers and dies?"
Now at night I watch the stars
And wish you were at my side
I wonder if you felt this pain
Or if you ever cried...
You had a lock around your neck
And you trusted me with only key...
But did it hurt you when you broke my heart?
Did you ever love me?

This will make it easier to access if I ever get accepted into one of those damned writer's guilds.