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I've been sitting here missing you
and thinking about all the things we didn't do
I've been sitting here wandering about
drifting throught the empty space
cracks in the wall but no real way out
I'd like a nice cup of coffee right now
hot and creamy to fill the emptiness
I just want to tear myself open
tear myself open
and break it all apart
it's deep and hard to forget
it's scary and I don't want to remember

I've been sitting here thinking clear
while my mind flashes all the faces that you make
I've been sitting here going crazy
as my mind takes me to the scenes I had to leave behind
and I don't know if my emotions are even normal
and I can't explain the loss I feel today
I wish I had a knife then I could slice off all my sadness
I want a loaded water gun so I can kill someone
I've been sitting here, waiting here
hoping there's some way out of here
I've just been holding in, losing it
feeling like a pseudo psycho

I've been sitting here fumbling through my field of failures
I've been sitting here drifting past the places no one but you and I know
now I'm no good, now I'm no good
break my backbone
now I'm useless, now I'm useless
tear my heart out
shred my mind
shred my mind
I've been sitting here spilling my contents on the floor
back out
I'm returning to the floor
I'm returning
I'm returning
I'm returning