It`s Hard To Imagine, I Yesturday That Is, Tried To End My Life. I Was So Close.. I Could Have Just Died Right There... Why Am I Writting This..Well The Thing Is If I Wrote This In My Real Journal My Mother Would Have Possibly Thrown Me Away To A Physco House I Ain`t No Physco You Know? I`m Just Crushed By What Or How Or Why I Tried That.. I`m Pretty Sure Nothing Would Have Happened.. Poping A Pill Here. Drinking A Little There. Mix The Wrong Pills With Alchohal And Your Pretty Much Dead Right There.. I Just Miss When I Was A Kid. Nothing To Worry About. No Fears Except What Was In The Closet. What Was Under The Bed. And I Feel So Alone Right Now. I`d Cry In My Room Forever Just To See If Maybe If I Cried Hard Enough.. Or Even Just To See If Maybe Someone Would Wonder.. Think About Me Once.. Heh Here I Am Going On About Nothing. If You Are Reading This And Are Just Going To Make Fun Of Me After. you Don`t Understand. My Sister Get Anything So Easy. I Have To Basically Try To Hard.. Met This Really Awesome Guy, On The Computer Of Course, And Well Guess What I Had To Just Go All Spaz And Now Another Enemy For Me. I`m Just Scared One Day I`m Gonna Die Before I Can Pass High School. I Know There`s Only 11 Years But What If.. What If I Die Before Then. I Know This World Has Gotten To Far When I, People, Want To Die. I Say Why Don`t I Have Friends But I Know Why. Such A Bitter Person Like Me.. Such A Selfish Dumb Person Like Me. I Deserve To Die. I Can`t Take It Anymore. No Point Anymore.
I`d Probably Cry Meself To Sleep Tonight.
And Wonder How The Stars Survive.
It Seems To Me It`s Hard To Stay Alive.
And When I Cry There`s Nobody I Can Talk To.
Nobody But My Razor.
It`s Almost Like A Lazor.
They Both Hurt When It Hits.
And Leave Red Trails Of Depression.
I Cry Out And Wait.. Wait For Him To Come..
But I Know. I`m Always Gonna Cry.
KNOWING IM HOPELESS emo
