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So I know how most people feel about me the list is all I need to see and at the top is my mother who thinks I'm a waste of time, life, and money she thinks I'll never be more then what I am now she maybe right but who cares if I ever go anywhere she doesnt even know I'm still here or she wouldnt if I didnt use any of her water, power, or phone. She'd even be happy if I didnt eat her food maybe this is what I should do just lay in bed and wait for death to come for me wait until the end has finally come to set me free of all the pain and heart ach I'm going though.. No one knows what it's like to know your own mother would kick you out on the street if your grandmother wasnt around to keep you there.. It hurts even more to hear her say it to your face maybe I'd be better off out there no one would have to put up with me and everyones lifes could be better they'd all move on and find love in someone else or find a new friends thats better or even find someone else to make them laugh and smile.. I for one wouldnt care to die out there it would be the happiess I've ever been.. Maybe I should just do what my friends have all done and join the army or something that way I can die for my country and maybe make someone happy too. My life has no meaning and without meaning you have nothing.. Try your hardest but know this your hardest well never be enough for them and they'll always put you down and make you feel like your wrothless.. The sad truth is I truely am I cant even do one thing to change it.. I cant even be with the ones that love me and make me feel better...
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If you want to check out my journal I have a new entry I put in