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cry My mouths open with chapped lips as my voice strains to call your name.

But You cant hear me. You cant hear me as i scream for help.

I'm just a shadow you see before dawn.

I'm just the picture that you had never drawn.

Although i feel your presence near .

Your love that seems to lack is something i fear.

I hear the angels, they're softly singing songs of death.

Songs of the day i'll take my one last breath.

Everything around me seems so destroyed ...so broken.

This place is unknown. its forsaken.

My memory feels like a book with a couple missing pages.

Feels like i can't do this.

I can;t get out of here. I can;t find an escape.

Like the pain i consume in my body has never ceased to burn.

I feel the demons crawl around my body.

My eyes fill with darkness and my strength is gone.

The light struggles and i stretch out my hand with all i got.

I realize this isnt what i wanted.

I will forever be haunted.

With dreams of those sacred memories i can't seem to forget.

Their all about everything i regret.

Its like i'm missing something.

I don;t think like i used to.

I wonder what happened to what i used to be.





Screeching as my lungs breathe helplessly.

Can you hear me.

Do you care.

This isnt a little kid circus fair.

At least its not anymore.

I miss those days .

I miss it when the sun would shine on my face and i would enjoy the brightness of the day.

I miss the days i would dance in the rain with a huge smile, laughing.

I cant seem to relive those forsaken memories i treasure in my heart.

As i remember what i can, they only make things worse.

I feel like i'm trapped in a curse.

And theres never going to be a way out.