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Liz still has Ed's shoes, unbeleiveable, hahaha, so kawaii ^_^
not much to say..long, almost like an inside joke...but...inside jokes make me a little sad, so many good memoires can do that, for what is good is often sad...if that made sense.
~^_^~
Today my dad was making some coffee he had gotten from jen's mom becauses he helped-ish fix their computer.
There was this one he got that was from Hawaii (which i just relized is like kawaii with an H)
so i smelled it
and it was amazing.
yea this sounds stupid, i know but it really was.
coffe has this amazing smell that completely comsumes me and wraps me in daydreams of a poetic, forbidden romance...almost...and after ahiwle, the sensation leaves with the essence of coffee's scent, just like the dream.
almost sad, and it makes me a little lonely
but a different kind of lonely
where i want to be alone, instead of with someone...
a happy loneliness
but then again...maybe i've confused this feeling with another...
not a happy loneliness
but more the feeling of a
forgotten symphany of desperation and need...
for someone, some one special.
Wanting some one
and wanting to be alone
is completely opposite...but maybe in a way...
the same...
God, do i love coffee or more rather, the essance of it...
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