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i am in a very sad mood and i feel like going to a corner and just crying. my aunt and uncle(siblings) died a long time ago in two different but simmiliar car accidents. i remeber my aunt but not my uncle since he died before i was born. we went shopping today and i felt like throwing up. i KNEW something bad was going to happen today. i felt it yesterday too. and i found out after we came back from shopping. my dad had gotton into a car accident. he was okay but that arose so many painful memories. in the car as well we were talking about car accidents. my cousin was all like i havent had a car accident yet and then when she said that(last year or so) a few days later she had a car accident. and yeah she was fine. my cousin that was in the car with me today said the same thing and then hoped that she didnt jinx herself. kinda ironic eh? my dad pulled up 1 min after we came back. the car with all my memories of my childhood was messed up. the cars back mirror was shattered into a thousand peices. the whole back was screwed up. its was so painful just to see it like that. i felt like someone important in my life was hurt badly. so now all my painful memories or so fresh. i swear i have tears ready to fall. its hurts so bad. god why me? why does it always feel like me.