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This is a story of a girl
The same girl who was brought into the word
Not wanted, not needed, not even loved.
Her Nan stopped her mother from giving her away.
Many times.
Growing up she was shy but had the perfect little world
A safe world with amazing friends.
Soon as she got to high school.
She lost it all. All her friends. Finding out she was unwanted
Her little world had collapsed right in front of her.

On her own until just 13. She met a guy.
He gave her everything. Anything she wanted.
Until that one night. He forced her.
Forced her to do things she’d not long learnt about
He told her she would - if she loved him.
She did it. He wanted more. Much more
He took her into a room.
Trying to remove her of clothing.
Pinning her down.
But she got free. She never saw him again.

She was alone again. For another year.
She does stupid things.
Drinking every night until passing out.
Overdosing. Being saved at last minute when passed out.
She craves the attention she never gets.
She whores herself online.
Taking nasty pictures of her naked body.
Finally making friends. People who like her.
For the wrong reasons.
She gains friends in the real world.
Ones to laugh with. Cry with and have fun with.
They get boyfriends. She’s partly alone now.
She’s fed up of her life.
Fights with dad every night.

Before she meets the guy
The guy she thinks she can spend her life with.
She loses a lot of friends.
She doesn’t care. She has someone who will love her.
And be there.
Six months into it.
Things go terribly wrong.
She is accused of cheating for the second time.
She knows she hasn’t but she can tell no matter what she says
The relationship has changed
Nothing is the same since then.
They argue more and more.
Making her wish she was the same old girl.

She loses the closest friend she’ll ever have.
Her friends last words to her. "I wish you’d just die"
She thinks about how since being born she’s hurt everyone.
Her fault her uncle died in her arms. She gave him that last f**.
Her fault her brother like friend died from drugs. She loved him too much.
Her fault her mother and father hates her. She was born.
She hurts her boyfriend by being so horrible to him. Causing arguments then ignoring him.
Lost her friends for not paying attention every single second of the day to them.

Not believing she should be in this world. She writes a story. The story of a life.
The life of the girl who has tried so hard not to be herself anymore.
Saira hurts everyone. She wants to be ‘That girl Emma who is so cool and wouldn’t hurt anyone’
The end of the story will eventually end.
At the end of the girl.