heheh....so, one of my first real posts in this journal...i guess this is also gonna be one of my most intimate, seeing as how the one person that i really need to talk to refuses to come near me anymore. so let me tell you.
as some of you may know, my mother passed away on January 23rd, 2007. she was very, very, very sick. i'm tired of having to tell the story a hundred times, so i'm going to tell it once and only once. if you wanna know again, i'll be giving you the link straight back here. she had pulmanary hypertension disorder, a disease that doesn't allow the blood and lungs to collect enough oxygen that the body needs. this lack of oxygen caused her to collapse at her place of work ten years ago, and that's when they diagnosed her. she's been dealing with it for the back 7 years, and these last 3 it's gotten much worse. she'd been put on stronger, more experimental medication that caused her body to weaken to the point where she could hardly get up out of her chair. it was because of the medicine that caused her to go into heart arrest, and stop breathing entirely.
i realize that without the medicine we wouldn't have had her this long...she may have even have died the day she collapsed. i was only five at the time...so i have no idea. i do know that this whole thing caused her a great deal of pain, both physically and emotionally because she always, always loved to be at all our programs at school and sports and stuff...but she couldn't make it these past few years to all of them...and the last couple of months...she hardly left the house. it was so sad...to see her cooped up in the house when she so desperately wanted to go with us. i cried everytime i thought about it, and now....i seem to cry more.
i'm sorry for rambling like this. i just had to talk...and the someone i wanted to talk to wasn't there to listen, so i just...typed somethin up. if you read, thank you for reading. if you didn't, it really doesn't matter.
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