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Morbidly Yours
This is my journal. I keep my personal, private/public thoughts.
Random Thoughts
Ever since last year, I have written "random thoughts" to myself in my school notebook. Except, I haven't written a R.T. in about 2 months. So today as a treat, I would love to share with you my PERSONAL Random Thoughts that I wrote during Math. Enjoy.

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R.T. 2/24/05 2:40 P.M.- 3:10 P.M.

Currently Feeling: Meh. A bit stressed/upset. No idea why.
Mood: So-So
Last Movie I Saw: Phantom of the Opera (on Sunday)
Song(s) Stuck In Head: "Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again" and "The Phantom of the Opera" (both from the PotO soundtrack)
Mad At Anyone? Meh. A few people. Nothing serious though.
Things on My Mind:
-2/1/05
-Where I went wrong.
-Why I ever said yes.
-Why we're not friends.
-school.
-The baby goats.
-Him.

I haven't written a R.T. in about two months now. I've been trying to keep my feelings in my head, so that no one can read them. Ever since last years insident involving my R.T.'s and a poem about someone dying, I've been in a pretty non-writey-ness stage.
Well, I better start where I left off. It was a few days after the concert I believe.

Actually, I don't want to post all of it. I'll just write the most important events that have happened since then.

-X-mas. nuff said.
-Winter break.
-Came back to school, had a blackout, missed school for 5 more days.
-1/7, Jared asked me out. *dance*
-Everything went smoothly for about 3 weeks.
-2/1. He broke up with me. I not only lost a boyfriend, but a best friend.

And now I'm here. Writing to you. Because I don't want to work on Pre-Alg. homework right now.

I hate talking about Jared. I hate the fact that it's been almost 4 weeks since we broke up, and I'm STILL not over it. I can't stand him not being my friend. That hurts WAY more than him breaking up with me. He broke my heart in more ways than one.
I know everyone's getting sick of me talking about it. I know it. I'm not a COMPLETE idiot. I know that they're thinking "God will she just shut up about Jared" when I talk about him. It's just... I liked him so much... And it tears me up inside that he's not even my buddy anymore. We used to be really close. He's the only guy that I've met that understood me. Yes, I know, every girl says that about the guy they like... But with him it was different. We had a lot in common. He was one of my best friends...

And I lost him.
The End.

I wonder if things will ever be the same. If we'll laugh about the stupid stuff we did. If we'll just talk about nonsense. If I'll ever look into his eyes and see the Jared that was once my best friend...

The bell's about to ring. I better go.

Morbidly Yours,
~Sam Gimpy Zip






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lollyPOPtastic
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commentCommented on: Sun Feb 27, 2005 @ 07:45pm
I totally understand how your feeling right now. I've know my friend, Matt, for 6 years nearly. I moved away and we live an hour or so apart. So we went out last year then his brother told me tha he was cheating on me. I was so pissed off with him that he couldn't tell me that I wasn't enough for him. We'd known each other long enough.

Son anyway, I'm here if you need to talk, alright?


commentCommented on: Sun Feb 27, 2005 @ 08:22pm
<center> Your Journal has been stalked. D:
I'm sorry that you were unable to remain friends with Jared.
Breaking up can be ******** painful, so I feel for you.
That's why I've never dated any of my best friends. <3
*gives you a hug*
Stalker out.



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