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I feel so ignored by just about everyone, and the only people who seem to pay any attention are the people I desperately need to get away from and fast. All I want is someone to notice every once in awhile, and not just constantly tell me I'm wrong. My family is becoming worse than before. I can't stand having to live here with them, I really can't. I dream of the days when I can escape from my mother and my sister. It seems like the more I want them away or to leave me alone the more persistently I get followed around and irritated. Sometimes Chloe follows me room to room like some kind of parasite, and mom attaches to me like a germ. The only alone time I get is on here and even then I have to constantly look over my shoulder to make sure one of them isn't following me again trying to see what I'm typing. If they knew how I felt they'd probably tie me down to the bed and stay with me every second until I absolutely lost what little is left of my sanity. Plus mom still is shoving those nasty pills down my throat like I'm two or something, and she still won't ******** listen when I say they don't work.

I've been trying to reach out to people who feel like I do and everytime I try to find someone who hurts themselves and longs for escape all I get is critisized and told to get mental help.

The only person I ever feel truly at home with I never get to be near. Which only makes me wish I could escape even more, so that then maybe we could be together without the world staring over our shoulders all the time or pulling us away.