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God, I know I have asked you for many, many things before. But I really need something from you right now in my life…I know you made my soul and everything else in my life, but I need something more right now from you. I need…love. Maybe I have no idea what love really is right now but I keep feeling like something is missing from my life. Like something is gone…I thought that you might know what it was and maybe you could fix it. My prayers I’ve made haven’t been answered in any way I can understand or maybe they haven’t been answered at all…Is it because I’m weird or strange that I feel like this, or is it something else I can’t explain at all. I just feel empty somehow inside me. I do feel happiness and all, I laugh, get mad, smile, and I cry. But there’s just something wrong with it all. Once all my feelings leave I feel like this…I’m writing this in hope that you will read this over my shoulder or somehow, but I know that you probably won’t and you probably don’t care about what I pray or write to you about at all. I just thought that you could help me somehow…since I believe in you so much. I know I don’t go to church or anything like that but I still believe in you with all my heart…That’s all I wanted to say…Amen.