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Can a heart still beat when it's so badly broken?
Well, This is Wonderful.
I just blew up at one of my best friends EVER for something she typed. Right now, I'm crying at my computer, trying to do my damn algebra homework (DAMN GT!) and I can't get over something. It's like, ugh. There's no way for me to put it. I'm listening to "Anthem of our Dying Day" by Story of the Year. Listen to it, and then you'll get pretty close to how I feel. But, then sevenfold it. Now, you have me.

Someone called me a lesbian again. Stephanie and Becca, mainly Becca, you know how much at upsets me. I told them that they were the ones who touched themselves at night and moved on. Still, I was pretty distraught. I didn't really talk much for the rest of the day. I had 4 people ask me what's wrong. I can't even remember 3 of them. I just remember Jaimie being one of them. God, I love her so much. JJ is always there, ya know?

I blew up at Sam, too. I hate to say it, but it felt good. She kept asking for my chips, and I kept saying no. I wasn't going to eat them, true, but I was saving them for Terra. She likes pita chips. She said so once in 6th grade, and I actually remember it. Shock. Well, finally, I said "Sam, I'm not giving you the chips. Maybe bring a lunch tomorrow with chips in it, because no way in hell I'm giving you mine."

Yes, it was a little harsher than I intended. But, today was a really bad day. And she wouldn't stop asking for the ******** chips.

Plus, Sam said she was quitting basketball. Even after the pact we made, she was going to quit. I stuck through volleyball with no particular interest in it, I wasn't even good at it, but I stayed in. And she was going to quit! I knew then that I couldn't trust Sam anymore.

Then she shows up for practice, all happy. Like she wanted to be there. An act for every occasion, no? I just ignored her for the most part. I don't need more stress right now. I mean, I'm taking the SAT in a couple weeks. I need my study time.

Ugh. I'm just so mad right now. I made a playlist on my computer just for days like today. It's called "For the Just Don't Ask Days." Right now it's on Mississippi by Train. It's a really awesome song. I recommend it to all of you who I force to read this.

Your lord and master,
Lois


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  • User Comments: [2]
    Yeah, im guessing im the friend you blew up at for something i type sweatdrop sorry, And yeah i know how that upsets you....im sorry lois....BUT I KNOW THAT YOUR NOT LESBO!!!!!!! because i've been ur best friend for 4 years and never have you tried to hit on me....lol! xp sweatdrop blaugh rofl and plus your not that kind of person! And i never liked sam....no offence to her or you or anything but i never liked her at all.....

    comment ~[-Ravens_Gate-]~ · Community Member · Thu Jan 11, 2007 @ 02:03am
    A LESBO!!!!! I"M GONNAAAAAAAAA KILL EM, wy in hell would they say that, i sware.........&*@#$%%%^^&&*^&^&*^&* *Stomps on the grounbd, extremly hard*)

    comment Chrnolover · Community Member · Thu Jan 11, 2007 @ 02:16am
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