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I give up, I give up, I give up, I give up.....

I love him. I love him SO MUCH. But he loves her, and she hates him, and he's blind to it....... I love him.

They say if you love someone, you can't get them out of your mind.

And I've been thinking about that.

And I wonder..... what if... what if they're not supposed to be there?
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I'm so sick of him.

I love him, I really do. I miss him terribly. I don't think I could live without him.

Loving him is keeping me alive, but it's killing me.

And I've been thinking about that.

And I wonder...... maybe.... maybe by keeping myself alive in him, I'm already dead.
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I'm forgetting about him.

I can hardly remember why I started to love him now. True, I still love him, but I can do without him now.

But I wish I could feel warm without him.

I wish I could feel again.

And I've been thinking about that.

And I wonder..... can a..... can a heart still beat when it's so badly broken?

I'm giving up. These all were thoughts I had over the car ride home. These, and much more, made me realize how worthless life really is.

I love you all, I really do. But I don't feel loved. I know someone, somewhere, really understands me.

But all that person has done is hide.

If you feel you want to put up with a depressed me, show me you care. Call me before Tuesday. Cell number- *WOW CAN I NOT*
If you are going to be sick, pressuring, or obnoxious, don't bother calling.

Until I hear your voice,
Lois