surround me in shreads, surround me in earth...
clicky above to help me on my quest <3
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Oh... -wails- I miss posting in here. Hella lot, too. TT___TT
Argh- at Drama class today I havn't ate Snack and didn't touch my breakfast...my stomach growled loud enough for my peers around me to hear. =.=;; Thing is, it happened not so many days ago the same thing because I didn't eat. Why I didn't eat? Because my mother never LETS me eat. Is she trying to kill me? What's happening?
Anyway, I am moving to an extended class since I was missplaced in to core (since I stared the school year late- I had to go to Canada). My teacher, allows me to do extended work in class but I must do the core work as well. Thing is, I am supposed to move- but the extended teacher said I must do all the work which they did at the last quater term. Is he nuts!? That's a hella lot. Strange thing is that the other students who moved in last quater term just moved. So why can't I do the same?
Moving on, I'm having cramps. I forgot how painful they were. Haha~ I normally don't get them...but...argh- the pain. Medicine doesn't help, hot drink helps only for a sec- and god knows what.
I was checking my computer files for the story I had made long time ago- it seemed it was deleted. ********! Gosh, it's gone. It took me many days to write it and it was an excellent piece of work. Well, its gone out the shoot now. *sighs*
My english teacher practically hates me. She said she knows what my grade will be for all the reports which is going to be handed in. She said I won't get a high mark. Thing is, last year the hardest grader of them all and the smartest, the leader gave me quite a good mark. A high 6 outta 7 for the whole year. This teacher gives me a low 4 which is nearly a failure. 3 is a failure by the way. It pounds my head in such pain. Is my english that horrible? Where all the other teachers wrong? The MYP coordinator disagree's with my english teacher and I shouldn't get a low mark, but she insisted that I do. She said 'We are writing a different english than the other years.' Different english? English is English. It is not German! She pains me, but how could I talk to an adult in such way? She won't listen to me, she never does. Never takes my ideas in to account.
Well...to look on the bright side...I'm getting higher grades in other subjects. Heck- I'm doing waaay beyond my skills. The biggest mistake for me was in the beginning of the year, missing out things and taking things layed back and easy. Working hard REALLY does count. I'm loving it. I used to hate it. Haha- I wonder how long will this last.
And...today...I finally spoke to Ein once again. It seems like forever since we last spoke, I missed him dearly. I wish I could talk to him in real life, see him and...actually hug him. But...I know it won't happen. First off we live in different states. But, I love him. I love him so much that it flutters me around in heaven. Haha. I was thinking, maybe one day we could talk on phone. But from where he lives it would be expensive, but for me its much cheaper. Then again, what will we say? It'll be so hard. Haha, I keep daydreaming. Oh well.
I had a dream about him, it was weird...strange...and sad. It was depressing, it felt like I was not really there, I felt lonely even though he was there. It was- so strange. But we were so much in love. It was a simple thing, but it affected me so much as I slept. Like a picture froze, our words seemed to exchange as we talked slowly. Well... I'm not going to tell it here, it's private. I should really tell Ein, should, would, next time. Hopefully. Finally.
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...surround me with fire, surround me with love.
