would you sacrifice yourself to prtect a person you love? Would you commit suicide if reality became too much? Would it be wrong to want to fade away?
But will i have the courage? Can i be brave enough to go deeper than before? This time can I get the knife through me?
I'm afraid of dying...I don't want to die...But life could be so hard..and I could be such a coward...What do I fear about dying?
It's that when I die I'll be forgotten. I'll be mourned at my wake...but in a couple of months I'll be forgotten like I never existed...my friends will move on...my parents will hide proof of my existence because it hurts to see me. My one true love will move on...find somebody else...in movies people support the leading actress who tries to push herself into a man's life, a man who lost his love to death and they applaud at the happy ending. What happens to the one who died? I've been dreaming about it...dying...and whenever I come to the part where I watch the one I love the most fall for someone else it feels as though I'm breaking apart...I don't want to be forgotten. I want to be remembered...But I know that it's impossible...if I die tomorrow...in a couple of years even when they hear my name they wouldn't remember me...
I'm not sure..what to do...can't I just fall down and cry? Can't I just suddenly fall into a magical world where I can forget about all of this? I've been crying too much...however much I try to stop the tears just keep falling...All I can do is indulge myself in my bitterness...
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