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have you ever had those feelings that something was wrong? i have those a lot and never once have those feelings been proven wrong.. i just wonder what it will be this time.. yesterday i had the feeling but it changed me in an adnormal way.. i felt really emotionless and well felt empty.. usaully im frantic when it comes to this feeling but this time it was different.. this time the bad feeling felt kinda peaceful.. while i felt this i thought of my grandpa thats living in CC.. and well i felt he was gone.. i hope its not true i at the least want one of my grandfathers at my wedding and well ones dead and now all i have is papa... Tutu Paul is my graandpa but i know he will be here.. i just dont wanna lose my papa.. i care about him more then anything and i dont wanna lose him.. and yet im at peace and i dont know why.. i cant understand it.. if papa died id hate myself for not being there for him... i asked my dad to check up on him for me.. maybe he will and maybe papas alive.. i hope so