I can’t express it anymore. What I’m feeling for you is overwhelming. I feel as if I wanted to just fall down and awake in your arms. I feel impotent and caged. I know the cage will open one day but I fear it will be too late and my feelings will be deleted from my head. I fear that after getting out of the cage I would be a rock without feelings. You make me feel alive, more sensitive to things. You make my irrelevant worries disappear. With you, I don’t have to pretend to be smarter just to get acceptance. With you, I don’t have to worry about being prettier or sitting straight. The pressure that I’ve always had since innocence was ripped away from me is no longer a weight in my shoulders. I know one of my goals is to progress everyday. But deep inside, if I could just leave all the pressure of obtaining a good job and getting into a good college…I would and just stay with you…I want to be with you…I want nothing else in our way. I’m tired of suffering for your absence. I’m tired of hiding my feelings for you. I want to let it out of my lungs and scream I LOVE YOU CHONG! I love you with all my heart. I want to be with you now.
And when I hear your voice it ceases…the storm inside my head that deprives me from happiness. I can give you a real smile because they are bursting out with joy that completes me. You filled that emptiness in my heart. Although I haven’t learned my lesson, you have taught me to love myself more. I mean, if such a great person loves me why don’t I love myself? Heh…well I love you because you give just what I need, not what I ask for but what I need. If you gave me what I wanted or always said what I wanted to hear…then I couldn’t grow as a person with you like I am doing right at this moment. You are making me a better person slow but constant. I owe you a lot indeed. You have taught me to be strong and wait for the things I really want. You have saved my life many times and I’m sure you will keep on blessing me until we both die together. Because I will never break that promise I made…I will be by your side until you grow old and your life comes to an end.
Crystal and Chong in love ^^ since 2005 forever and ever X INFINITY together (YAY!)
And when I hear your voice it ceases…the storm inside my head that deprives me from happiness. I can give you a real smile because they are bursting out with joy that completes me. You filled that emptiness in my heart. Although I haven’t learned my lesson, you have taught me to love myself more. I mean, if such a great person loves me why don’t I love myself? Heh…well I love you because you give just what I need, not what I ask for but what I need. If you gave me what I wanted or always said what I wanted to hear…then I couldn’t grow as a person with you like I am doing right at this moment. You are making me a better person slow but constant. I owe you a lot indeed. You have taught me to be strong and wait for the things I really want. You have saved my life many times and I’m sure you will keep on blessing me until we both die together. Because I will never break that promise I made…I will be by your side until you grow old and your life comes to an end.
Crystal and Chong in love ^^ since 2005 forever and ever X INFINITY together (YAY!)
