So right..
Since I been with Paul I've decided I do actually want kids later on in life..
&& I cant wait..
Having ickle Pauls running about sounds so cute ^_^
BUT.
We had a problem the wednesday before xmas &&
I think he may have "been sick" in me..
So that scared me but I shrugged it off && said it dont matter..
I'll come on..
Now.. I was due on on 30th December..
It's the 3rd of Jan..
I'm still not on..
4days late..
I'm getting kinda worried..
I dont want a baby yet..
I wants a life..
I am gonna cry.
If I'm not on by monday I'm gonna do a test..
BUT I'm praying to God that I am on soon..
I really dont want a child.. it'll be a waste of 3lives..
Mine, Pauls and the child cos if kept.. I'm too young to be a mom..
But I hate abortions
-tear-
Anyways, I had to tell someone..
Even a shitty journal like this..
That virtually nobody reads anyway.
Since I been with Paul I've decided I do actually want kids later on in life..
&& I cant wait..
Having ickle Pauls running about sounds so cute ^_^
BUT.
We had a problem the wednesday before xmas &&
I think he may have "been sick" in me..
So that scared me but I shrugged it off && said it dont matter..
I'll come on..
Now.. I was due on on 30th December..
It's the 3rd of Jan..
I'm still not on..
4days late..
I'm getting kinda worried..
I dont want a baby yet..
I wants a life..
I am gonna cry.
If I'm not on by monday I'm gonna do a test..
BUT I'm praying to God that I am on soon..
I really dont want a child.. it'll be a waste of 3lives..
Mine, Pauls and the child cos if kept.. I'm too young to be a mom..
But I hate abortions
-tear-
Anyways, I had to tell someone..
Even a shitty journal like this..
That virtually nobody reads anyway.
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