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Stand Together Brethren
December 25, 2004 was the day I died. Some people say that the pain of losing someone can drive a person mad. In this case, though, it was enough to kill someone.
I don’t remember much about my childhood, but what I can tell you is that I was always considered inferior to my twin brother. My name is Zero, the nickname given to me by everyone around me. Even my family came to now me as so. I don’t remember my real name and neither does any one else, but I don’t care because even in my eyes I wasn’t my sibling’s equal.
Though we were twins, I called him my older brother because he was born first. He always acted as such: protecting me from bullies, always standing up when I was afraid to, and even caring for me when I was sick or injured. I understand that most siblings fight, but we never did. I loved my brother. Since my parents always admired him with such awe, I was ignored. He was the only person who ever treated me like a human being.
At school it was all the same. People thought of Jace as the smartest and coolest guy. Who could blame them? Jace was tall and thin with sleek brown hair that hung over dark green eyes. He had a flat stomach, broad shoulders, and he was always active. I, on the other hand, was tall, but still shorter than him, with slightly less broad shoulders. I had light silver hair that drooped down over my glamorous, pink violet eyes. My eyes were probably the only things that people admired. Aside from that I was like my brother: skinny and athletic, even though my skin was a shade lighter than his.
I suppose growing up listening to his appraisal should have left me with great hatred, but it didn’t. Most of his fans were girls, which I hardly noticed and had time for. As a photographer, I couldn’t let myself be toyed with by brainless twits with fake breast. Jace thought differently though. His only obsessions were men and women. He would tell me every day that at my age I should be more interested in relationships than cameras. He was right, as always. At eighteen I should have been doing fun things like going to parties and getting laid, but all that stuff just didn’t seem important to me…until I met him. He would change both my brother's life and mine.
It was right after our eighteenth birthday that we graduated from high school with the highest honors. That night the formal student council had arranged a graduation party and, somehow, Jace had persuaded me to go. Like anything else that involved social skills, the party would be meaningless. Yet I allowed my feet to take me to the front door and walk into the room so that I could see what the big deal was, if nothing else.
It was a fairly big room with tile floors and hard wood walls. There were huge red drapes that fell over windows that over looked the ocean’s shore. Lights hung high above the floor and a small bar was stationed near the farthest corner of the room. Jace took a hold of my arm and dragged me in. We passed many people that I had seen in school but one person caught my attention. Someone I had never seen before. My brother, I guess, saw my stilled eyes because he dragged me over to the guy.
Once we stood in his presence, Jace finally let go of my arm. He started by introducing himself…then me. I couldn’t believe what was happening. My body felt stiff and my knees weak. My stomach began to twist and my face became red.
“Hey, my name is Souyu. I take it you guys graduated today also.” As he spoke I could feel my heart beat inside my chest as though it were trying to break free.
“Yup, but I don’t think that was the hard part. More or less, getting a job until college classes start will be difficult with over six hundred students that graduated.” I could see that Jace’s eyes glistened with desire and lust while he looked over Souyu’s body. As did mine, though, and I couldn’t figure out why.
Souyu was about as tall as my brother with black hair and blue eyes. He was skinny and more muscular than either of us. He put an arm around each of our shoulders and walked us outside to the beach. It was a beautiful sight. The sun was just making its way behind the mountains, shedding its golden color on the ocean surface. A cool breeze blew by and sent the smell of Souyu’s cologne into my nose. I took a long breath and tried to savor it before speaking to him for the first time. “What about you?” My face was still flushed and my heart began to beat faster. “Do you have a reserved job?”
“You could say that. I know the owner of the Green Shore Hotel. If you guys don’t have jobs I can get you some. It won’t be glamorous, but you’ll have a place to stay and free meals. I could get you started as early as tomorrow at eight sharp.” As soon as he finished speaking he smiled at me and stared intently at my eyes.
“You would do that?” My voice sounded as though someone was choking me.
“Sure, but…why are you so red? Are you blushing?” He teased me by saying it in an innocent voice. He took his arms from around my brother and me and stood before me. He slowly clasped my face in his hands, all the while Jace watched with a smile. Souyu leaned down and placed a passionate kiss on my lips. My heart melted under the warmth that his mouth produced. I couldn’t think. I couldn’t even move in fear that this feeling would be ruined. After a few more moments he released my face and took a step back, breaking the kiss. “You two better not be late for work tomorrow.” With that he placed a kiss on Jace’s cheek and walked away.
“I saw that.” Jace turned to face me.
“What?” I wasn’t going to let him look through me.
“It looks like my baby brother’s balls have finally dropped.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Your first love of course.”
“What love?”
“If you’re not in love then why are you blushing so much?”
“I’m not blushing! I have a cold, that’s all.”
“If you say so, but don’t miss your chance. He’s a handsome guy and he likes you. But if you don’t I will. It’s just genetics, I suppose, that we both share the same taste in men.” I ignored him and stared at the last rays of the sun. I wanted to pay no heed to his teasing. It wasn’t true. How could it be? I had never shown any emotion indicating attraction towards any one. I sure as hell wasn’t going to start.
As we got home, our parents greeted Jace with a graduation gift. To my surprise, they also handed me something and even took the time to hug and appraise me. I smiled a little. Never in my life had they embraced me in their arms or even cried for me. Tears of joy continued to run down their faces until I went to bed. I placed the memento they had given me on a shelf and kicked off my shoes. I undressed slowly, distracted by the smell of Souyu on my clothes. Once all my clothes were off I slipped on a pair of black silk boxers and lay down in my bed. I pulled the covers up and turned on my side. My fingers made their way to my lips. I could’ve been in love. Only the time that was to pass would tell.
A few weeks had passed since the graduation party. Souyu had made good of his word. All three of us: Souyu, Jace, and I worked at the Green Shore Hotel as bus boys, stockers, cooks or whatever job the manager had for us. Since winter was coming, though, we had a lot of free time. Jace and Souyu would often compete against each other by racing down the floors. I, on the other hand, had all the time in the world to take pictures of the ocean and sunset. Now I’m not quite sure when this happened, but a group of girls would always come by the hotel either looking for Souyu, Jace, or me, sometimes all three of us. Apparently I became popular once my balls dropped, as my brother put it. For once, in eighteen years, they compared me with Jace. They said that we were lookers and cool, but I still didn’t care much for the attention of girls. The only person I wanted attention from was Souyu.
Christmas was two weeks away and we suddenly became busier than ever. We no longer had the same shifts. Souyu and I would take ours first and then Jace would close up for the night. We all still saw each other seeing as we were all roommates. That night was different though. As soon as we got off work and greeted Jace, who was just starting his shift, Souyu put his arm around my shoulder and dragged me to the room.
Once we were in the dark room, the light of the full moon could be seen through the curtains. Souyu sat me down on his bed and looked into my eyes. Like he had done weeks before, he placed a loving kiss on my lips. The feeling returned. My heart melted and I was in paradise. After a moment he stood up and turned away from me. I sat on the bed thinking that I had done something wrong, that was until he spoke. “Do you love me, Zero?” His voice was soft and kind as it always had been.
I didn’t answer. He could tell from my silence what I would have said had I spoken. He took off his shirt, revealing lean muscles under soft tan skin, and threw it on the ground. He then turned around and approached me. He knelt down and began undressing me, starting with my shirt. Once that was off, he slowly worked on my pants. I could tell that he was enjoying every moment. Now, I wasn’t wearing any under wear or boxers so once he had my pants off he had full access to my private parts. He stared at me with a grin noticing something that I hadn’t…my erection was at its full length and beckoning him to come closer. He acknowledged that and took off his own pants. He wasn’t wearing any under garments either!
I focused my eyes on his beautiful body, because unlike myself he had the body of a man. I was often told that my body looked like that of a chick’s because I had a small waist and small chest. Watchful of my every move, he stepped closer and kneeled in front of me again. He made me lay back on the bed while he did something. I felt helpless on my back. That thought was quickly replaced when I felt a warm sensation. Souyu had taken my erection all in his mouth and started bobbing up and down in a rhythm. A few times he would stop at the head of my p***s just to tease me by swirling his tongue around, trying to taste my essence, or so it seemed. My climax was building fast. I arched my back and then came.
As Souyu came on the bed and laid on top of me I could see that he was licking traces of c** off his lips, apparently he swallowed. He took a hold of my legs and placed one on each side of his waist. He leaned in close and began kissing me. I could taste the c** in his mouth but I didn’t care. All I wanted were those hands to touch my body and those lips to lock with mine. Slowly he went down my throat, placing kisses, and when he reached my chest he caressingly sucked on my nipples. In an instant my erection was back to its full length. I though I would come right then. But he must have read my mind because he stopped for a moment.
Souyu positioned himself at my entrance and then began sliding in. I went wild. It was an exhilarating pain and I wanted more. Once he was at the hilt he ceased and let me adjust to his size. “Are you alright? Am I hurting you?” His voice was soft and full of lust.
“No. I’m just scared. I’ve never done this before.” My answer was pretty vague. It did hurt, but I didn’t want to tell him that. He might stop.
“Don’t worry…” His voice was faint as he began to pull out and thrust back in, each time faster, harder, and deeper than the last. It was astounding. I had never experienced this much pleasure in my life before. I could feel each motion of his throbbing passion as he thrust back into paradise. My body tightened around him, as he was able to move more easily with the precum that he produced. I could feel it more than ever that this was my end. Like before, I arched my back and shot c** all over his stomach. A few seconds after, Souyu came with great force and laid his seeds deep within me. He fell forward and rested on my chest. We stayed that way for a while before he grabbed a rag and cleaned off his stomach. Then he climbed in bed and we cuddled until we fell asleep.
I remember waking up to the sound of Jace coming in through the door. He carefully came to the bed and smiled at me. I smiled back and for the first time I felt like I was a real person.
It was Christmas day when we were finally allowed to go back home. As usually Souyu and I finished our shifts and greeted my brother as he was about to start his. We walked out of the hotel and drove into the city, but instead of taking me home Souyu took me to an old abandoned warehouse. When I asked him why all he said was that it was a surprise. I didn’t know what he was talking about. Nonetheless, I stepped out of the car and walked into the warehouse. It was cold and the room was dark. I looked back at Souyu who was shadowed by another figure. “Souyu, what’s going on?” I tried to focus my eyes so that I could see the face of the shadow.
“Don’t worry, Zero. You won’t get hurt. Just don’t resist or fight and it will be over quicker.” Souyu’s voice sounded frightened and unsure.
“What will?” I was both scared and angry. How could he do this to me? I trusted him. Before Souyu could answer, the figure stepped out of the shadows. It was the owner of the Green Shore Hotel! Now going back a few weeks, apparently this guy had been charged with several counts of molestation. The only reason he had given my brother and me jobs was because he wanted to get lucky with two good-looking guys. The only thing was that he couldn’t get both of us at once, so he made sure that we each had different shifts.
He stepped even closer to me. I had only met him once but I could still recognize his face. He was a really tall and muscular guy. He was someone who looked as though he had been a prison-b***h too long. The closer he got the farther I moved away. Soon enough he had me backed up against a stonewall with nowhere to go. Once he was close enough, he grabbed the collar of my shirt and tore the garment off, exposing my flesh to the cold.
He stepped towards me again and began running his hands up and down my body. As he did so, I caught a glimpse of a gun that he had in his jacket. My plan was to kick him in the nuts and run off, but if I did he would surely shoot me. I couldn’t reach for the gun either. Looking more closely I could see that there was a strap attached to it that went down his arm and connected to his wrist. My only option was to listen to Souyu and stand still.
“I’m sorry, Zero. I didn’t want any of this.” I knew that he spoke the truth because tears ran down his face and dropped to the snow.
“I don’t blame you. It’s this sick b*****d who can’t get laid without tricking people!” I obviously angered him because he head butted me and then punched me in the stomach. His hand made its way down my pants and cupped my balls. I was disgusted as I spit out blood. What had I done to get punished like this?
At that moment I remember thinking about Jace, wishing that he were here to save me as always. Someone must have liked me because they granted my wish. Jace ran in and punched that jerk, knocking him to the ground. “Are you alright?” Jace was panting heavily so I guessed that he ran here from the hotel. I nodded my head. I know that this is the part where I ask ‘How did you know I was here?’ Frankly, screw that! I didn’t care how he knew, just that he was here.
Jace was one of the hardest punchers around. That guy should have been out cold, but he wasn’t. As soon as we turned to walk away, that son of a b***h took his gun out and fired two bullets. One hit me in the back and came through my left breast, where my heart was. The other hit my brother in the head, killing him instantly. As I fell to the ground I couldn’t help but grab Jace’s arm. I knew he was dead and it was because of me. I’m still not sure what hurt more: the bullet wound or losing my twin brother.
My blood stained the snow red. I couldn’t move, I couldn’t even breathe, and my vision was becoming blurry. I closed my eyes and heard footsteps approaching us. They were his footsteps. Then, another gunshot came from in front of us. The footsteps stopped. Souyu had shot him.
My mind had gone away and I could no longer hear my heart beat. I was dreaming, I know I was. I was at the beach where we first met Souyu, but I was alone. The sun was the way it had been and the sea’s waves were rough. I could hear sounds around me. I was in a hospital. I could hear my parents’ voices, and I began to cry. The next thing I knew, I heard a heart monitor. It was getting weaker. The weaker the heartbeat got the smoother the ocean became.
No one had to tell me. I knew I was dieing. I would never open my eyes again. I didn’t want to either, not without knowing that my brother would be there like he always had been. The pain from the bullet wound had gone away. All I could hear was my mother’s voice. “Don’t leave us! Sano, please don’t die, we love you!” My mother was crying…and she called me by my name.
The last thing I remember is hearing a flat line. That was when the ocean went still. I slowly approached the water and went deeper and deeper in. I walked into the ocean and never came out.
My name was Sano. December 25, 2004 was the day I killed my brother and the day I died.
--Tsunami
 Tsunami-kun · Fri Dec 29, 2006 @ 02:53pm · 0 Comments |
