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Yeah, so my friends are doing a stupid lets go out with our boyfriends and do things. I mean I could go, but I feel so awkward and out of place. Like they go to the movies and they all take up one row, cause my friends are the kind like me who likes to sit by the wall. Even if we do sit in the middle it doesn't make much of a difference, because I'll be sitting next to one of them and they start to make out. I mean..who the hell makes out to the movie Happy Feet? I tend to throw my pop corn at them when they go at it and then my friends yell at me once the boys are not around. Plus the boys don't like me very much. They find me to be either too shy or when I talk and try to be funny, I'm to weird for there likeing. So I don't go out with my friends when it's boyfriend night. I sit on the computer, eat a whole thing of Ben and Jerry's ice cream, and just think what a loser I am. I mean I'm almost 18 years old and never been on a date. I don't even know how to start. I'm so awkward and depressed. I think I need better friends, but don't get me wrong, they are great when not around guys.