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Well I feel a bit better (not much though) I was really pissed. I dont think i have ever been so mad. I beat on the bag (without wraps or gloves sweatdrop ) Until I couldnt see....I ended up collapsing onto the pavment crying. Why is it when my little brother gets mad he doesnt remember it, but when i get mad I just cry? Is it a girl thing?
I sat down and just balled my eyes out until I could feel my hands and feet. I had stupidly hit and kicked the bag until I scraped myself up really bad. So after I could breath again (slight asthma attacks will go away with fresh air) I went into the house again, only to have my mom bomb me with tons of questions and get the waterworks going again. I HATE having people see me cry. Why am I so weak?
My mom actually came into my room and tried to comfort me. And i was honest when she asked stupid questions. (like what was wrong) I figure I was ok with travis's folks being wierd and stuff. It just hurts to know what He is going through. I want to help him in some way but i know i'll just make it worse. I'm soooooo helpless. That is why i'm pissed and i hurt so bad. Then again it also hurt that he asked me about dating others. I'm sure he ment well. (I trust him enough) But it just hurt you know. I dont mind if we shared another person (probly in the future when couples need spice) But I'm so terrified I'm going to lose him.
Honestly......I think that we.......well I dont like jinxing things so i wont say it. I just love him very much and I know this will all work out.

On a happy note: My kittens are sooo cute! they cant walk yet but they are playing with anything! blaugh