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What the hell is up with Dani?

Yeah we fought over a freakin' pizza, but she's not going to call me or talk to me until I apologize? It's just a stupid a** pizza.

Of course she pissed me off. I just read her journal. Okay, so you were fined for spilling a DRINK but what the hell does that have to do with a BOXof pizza?! How the crap could you spill pizza from a huge a** box onto a dress or something? I know your not clumsy, that one time was probably a once in a life time opportuntiy. What pissed me off was that you'd been doing that with EVERY store we went to, and I had to take the box and hold it. Just to satisfy you I asked that lady to hold the box for us while we played. But you couldn't, just for me, go into ONE store and suck it up, and be cautious with it?

Another thing, I probably wouldn't have been too mad if at least Tabitha came in with me, but she follows you like a lost puppy. Since when did friend come over sister? Yes, I know she looks up to you, you're like the coolest person in her opinion, but it just hurt me when she did nothing but follow you, she could've at LEAST come with me in ONE of the stores, but she doesn't have the same interests that I do. So she pissed me off too.

It just seemed like the pizza was more important than me at the time. $12 is more important than me. I mean, if I went into the store and suddenly a guy grabbed me and shoved a gun at my held saying he'll blow my brains out if they don't pay him $300,000 then would you come for my help? Would you drop the pizza and help me? My guess is yes...but...you won't do it just to satisfy me at least once? One store. That was all I wanted...Instead everytime you saw that freakin' sign you said you'd wait outside for me. I wanted to go to the mall to shop TOGETHER. Not for one of us to wait for the other.

Then it hurt even more when you and Tabitha walked together on the way home. You didn't even TRY to get my mood back to happy, you didn't even ENGAGE in my presence. Even when I waited for you guys to catch up you didn't say anything. All those times I was waiting for you guys I was hoping you'd talk to me or at least smile at me....but no....

And what's this crap with you always being the one who apologizes or forgets about it? That's both of us Dani. Not just you. It seems to me we both apologized at the same time whenever we got into a fight. Or if anybody, I was the one who let it go, who forgot about it, because I didn't want us to fight.

You told me once, that you stuck up for me, when your dad and mom started saying how...I can't remember what you said, but it was somewhere along the lines where we clash too much together and that sometimes it's like I drag you down. And just now, when you said that maybe your dad was right?......What a blow to the freakin' head! Well, that just showed in my eyes, that you are obviously ready to make new friends and leave your old ones behind JUST LIKE CJ. You wanna do that? Fine, don't let me "clash" into you again. Don't let me hold you down. Go for it. I wanted you to make friends anyway. Make a new best friend, because obviously that's what it sounds like you were trying to say in that journal. It's cool, because it's like everyone I want to stay, eventually leaves anyway. My dad left me, CJ left ALL of us, you seem to be leaving too, and Poppel will eventually be moving also. Who knows? Maybe next carolina will suddenly decide to move to Canada.

I don't care. All of you can leave me if you want. I should be use to it by now. I don't need any of you. I can make it on my own.

I was willing to let it go Dani. I emailed you trying to engage in a convo. and you just sent me a 2 word response. That made me feel like you didn't even want to TRY to forget it too.

I have homework to do, before I fail English on my report card, so I'm going to go now. If you guys never talk to me again... I'm not going to lie again.... I WILL care. I'll probably cry hours on end wondering what the hell was going through my head when I told you guys I didn't need you.But sooner or later...I'll move on. We all move on at some point. But it would be pretty awesome if we didn't.