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I only feel like I was an angel sitting on Cloud 9, playing my harp without a care in the world, when suddenly my wings were ripped out of my back and I was sucked into the foul abbyss of hell.

Pay day seems too far away and I screwed up on my quiz and I just feel too depressed to study. I try to tell myself that I need to lighten up, that pay day will come, that my quiz was only 2% and I'll just study harder and I'll study and do well on my midterms, but right now I just feel so down and have trouble memorizing anything. Ugh.

Maybe Gaia will cheer me up a bit. I think I've felt sleepy, depressed and irritable due to my cold. I've slept horribly and irregularly this whole week, plus I've had stomach troubles. I hope I feel better later.

Got my first Organic Chem lab coming up this Friday. Need to go over it again for my quiz. Also, got a midterm next week, at least I know Animal Developmental Biology pretty well. A paper's due in a couple weeks, all my other midterms are coming, ack, I hate this. Every prof seems to think you're only in their class or that their class is your top priority.

Promised Peter I'd go clubbing with him this weekend, promised Lynn I'd study with her, gotta work of Friday and Sunday and they all say teenagers don't do anything.

Plus, gotta put up with my mom's toxic cooking. Now, I love my mom and for the most part we get along even if she drives me crazy a lot. She doesn't know how to use the computer, she has trouble remembering things, she's always late and she's terrified of my driving (I haven't gotten into any accidents, unlike my brother), plus I think she favours my older brother more then me and babys my younger sister, though she'd never admit it.

But the one thing that annoys me most about her is her cooking. She'll make some nasty giant batch of tofu-ful health food stuff that tastes like a**, parks it in the fridge and won't eat it herself, then gets upset when nobody else will eat it and it gets all fuzzy. She won't eat her own cooking and to me, that's the ultimate hypocricy. A good chef will only cook for others what they're willing to eat themselves in my book. Plus she never gets the hint that 90% of her cooking stinks. My family won't eat it, my brother won't take her cooking home even though he's scraping to get by and she never goes for cooking lessons.

Well, enough of my whining and bitching, if I can say that anything has gone right for me so far, it's that I've parked away 5000$ of my savings into a GIC account and have firmly resolved not to touch it until my trip to Japan, that I'm praying I can do in 2008. It's just some of the money my dearly departed auntie bequeathed to me. I sometimes wish she had left me a memento to remember her by, but this is the next best thing. Thanks for helping my dreams come true Auntie, you're still in my heart and you'll still be in it when I land in Tokyo someday...