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Hey every one Guess what.. this is the last 5 months of my last year of mandatory schooling.. i mean im going to college thats a hands down thing and i really need to do my apps and stuff but i don't know how thats going to work out. i cant seem to make my self do things.. its NOT seinorites i know that cause i can do the work and once i get started i can do it just fine... i just cant get myself to start... i sit and look at it and then just ignore it... i cant do it...i kinda blame that fight with my dad over chollege and me going to citrus wether i like it or not... cause he really did just break me that night... ive never felt so bad for wanting to do more than be a middle class citizen in my entier life... and its sadening that my dad made me feel that way... but i think my moms right.. things between us will get better when i get out the house and live alone... then he'll not be so controling... im sure of that... well i hope im sure... hes tightening his grip on me now that im 6 months from being 18 and leagaly not his to controll any more...separation anxiaty i sware...
anyway
im gona suvive i think.. and i have credit for my math class i think... well i ll see you all latter... bye ^_^ and the love i feel in the aforcreated *just made a new word* entry is still there for you babe ^_^ i love you.
 Verin · Tue Feb 08, 2005 @ 11:51pm · 1 Comments |
