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Random title.
I'm soooo glad I forgot to talk to 'Sea this morning. I had totally spaced on a few things. I got a pretty little reminder in the form of my english binder. See, I have taped a few of the fortune cookie fortunes I've gotten recently to it. Reminded me of one I'd seen before. Which reminded me of...one nice full day of interest and intrigue, plus the added "bonus" of one hideous thing that happened. If I had been thinking straight at that point, I would've never let myself fall apart so completely for those few moments. I'm not even sure what I remember is accurate and real. But asking would just make me feel worse about it, either way, whether it's just a figment of my imagination or not. And there's a chance only I remember it. So typical.
Dear me, counselor lady...you don't stand a chance against a ghostly memory, especially when a huge part of it is 4 blocks away. Anywhere else would be great. But no. As long as I'm there, nothing will be accomplished.
So, I was wondering if I've been making a mountain out of a molehill. See, when we had Reconciliation the other day, I actually went. I wasn't going to, but then I found myself standing and walking to the line. Idiocity. And I know people were wondering what was going on because I took forever. But anywho, either I've been making a mountain out of a molehill, or the priest was making a molehill out of a mountain. "It's not necessarily sinful." MY FOOT. You DO NOT tell someone who is basically flipping out that it's basically NO BIG DEAL. ESPECIALLY if they appear to think it IS a big deal.
It's never going to go away. It's always going to chase my thoughts around in circles, won't it? The only time it leaves is when I'm doing something new and totally unrelated. Like travelling on a train. Didn't even think about anything but the trip until we got to El Paso and I was trying to sleep.
I need to stop prattling.........
I'm gonna go work on Vistoria's present! Then plan on my morning tomorrow being bad.
"So let's just get it over"
~nepie
 nepie · Tue Dec 12, 2006 @ 01:37am · 1 Comments |
=pretty sweet