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Damn it. Something that seemed so wonderful ended so fast. And yet...it makes sense. Master...or Sean, I gues I should be calling him, and I just couldnt keep doing this. The relationship wasnt real, but the pain was. I found something damn near perfect in him, but we were unable to make it real. So..I couldnt hear his voice, see his smile, feel his touch. I couldnt hold him in my arms, or me in his, and it made the pain to great. So...here it ends. Im not sure what to think. Now, Im going to go to school and break up with someone I love. Why? Because I know this relationship will never go further than it already has. I feel horrid leading him on like I feel I am. So Ill end it, though I love him. -sighs- If you love something, set it free.
But whats worse...Zak's dad is dying. So this is a horrible time. I just lost something I thought was wonderful, nothing would go right yesterday, Im in trouble for a lie I didnt tell....God....this has been a truly shitty 24 hours. -sighs- Well...Im off.