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It feels as if the world is getting farther from me or i'm getting farther from the world. cry i just fell as if i'm disconected from myself and all those around me. i'm in the cage and i can't get out with or without my beak. i guess some birds don't use their beak very often. the world as i now seems to be fading. fading from all humanity. i can't stand it, the world is not as it was all those years ago. they had less wars and us, we have all the wrong intentions for things. i can't stand it. it's like god is playing with us, and i'm the one he loves to torcher the most. i am an easy target but seriously, does it have to be me and the rest of the world. it's just weird and the scary part is that nobody knows really how i fell. i keep my real emotions bottled up inside the very fabric of my soul the has just had a tear in it. i'm bleed ing on the inside, but the outside is just me. it is too much for me to take. it's all because of the war and the pollution that we all make. even if we don't know how to drive, we all do it. with the car and the gasoline and the oil, etc. I cant take it. * sobbing* it's like there is another part of me tat is wanting to jump out and i'm too afraid to do it. i just can't do it. if only our ancestors were here, they would settle things strait. they would help us with our crisis and lead us to the path of peace, harmony, love, compassion, and emotions that most of us never show in our lives. i hope that this inspires ya'll to do good things for others and share what you have to people you love and care for. i know this will be a heart felt story to be told forever. and thank god for torchering us with his game of chess, we are all the pawns in the game and sometimes, we need to take a stand for what is right and what is wrong. amen and god bless you all no matter what the consiquences are, he will always love you.