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Some of you might know that I haven't been feeling too good for a while now... Mentally, I mean.
Things have been rough and stressful - in school, at home and online.
I've been weak as a new born kitty
Seriously >.o

My emotional health affects my physical health. So I've been all nauseous at times.
It's been horrible.
Not all the time, luckily.
Just... a lot.
Yesterday, something happened, and my father found out how I was feeling.
We had a long discussion
Not a fight, even if he was almost yelling at me
But anyway, that's not important

What's important is that... that night, when I tried to sleep, I realized that I was truly sick of it.
Heck, people were starting to call me emo
And I didn't get bothered until I realized how awful that really is
Being all "emo" isn't something to be proud of
It's not a lable
At least not in my case
It means you're emotional, depressed and selfdestructive
I don't want to be like that
Not at all >.O

I've never been like that until recently
But, as I said, I'm sick of it
I was really strong before
Even as a little kid
And I mean like.. a kid as in a three-year-old.
So wtf?

I wanted you all to know that I might act strange
Because I'm going through a process
Right now, I'm only going to pay attention to what makes me happy
It makes the process easier to deal with

After all, Amai's a happy person :3
And I'm going to make sure I stay that way

Just thought I'd let you all know, since a lot of people don't.
Ergh, like... everyone except for 3 or 4... >.O;;

I love you all, okay? x3
*Hug*

~Amai

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