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I want to run away
I want leave this place
I want to die
I wish I was never born
I want to be alone
I want to be stronger
I want to be in a safe place
I want to be happy again
I want to see my father again......

but if I think about all this things, I start to cry

I dont have the guts to hurt myself
niether to leave my mother

but I never fell happy
I hide my true feelings
I hide my sadness as best that I can
But some are able to still see it

I hate being taken advanted of
I fear that if I act to nice that they would hurt me

Im afraid of my own decisions
for I always come out makeing a mistake
yes I know the we are not purfect
but makeing to many mistakes is just wrong

I feel that im out casted
even when I have so many friends
thou I have to poke them to get there attention
or insalte them

I just wish I was still a little kid playing happly with my dad
letting him tell me stories of how my granpa would always get after him for doing something, laughting at his jokes that he would always say
If only............I could turn back the hands of time..........That is just mearly a dream for kids to think..........but thats basicly what I am.........a kid at heart and mind.......but a teen in body and age emo