Ever since starting with Brian I have been mulling over whether our relationship had a future. If I even wanted it to have a future. I care about him. That much was clear but I couldn't figure out if it could grow into love or if we were most likely good friends that sleep together. On top of that I was having everyone around me waiting for me to bail. Apparently, I run if it gets too serious. Everytime I talked to Marcie, Sako, of any member of my family, they would ask me if we were still together and then looked suprised when I would say that we were. This all made me wonder if I really wanted to be with him or if I just didn't want to prove everyone right.
But last week, I stopped being a chicken asked Brian about our relationdship. I was terrified that he felt more for me than I did for him but I also didn't want to be rejected. Ultimately, we decided that we weren't a perfect match but that we worked well together. He listened to my concerns like a champ and in the end we are still together but with a clearer understanding of our relationship. Now, I don't feel guilty for still looking for my one and only because I know that Brian is doing the same thing. We are just choosing to do it together.
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One two One two And through and through
The vorpal blade went snickersnack
He left it dead and with its head
He went galumphing back
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It's sobering to read something like this and bear witness to the multitude of relationship types. I used to think only compatible people were together, then I saw people together simply because they did not want to be alone, then I witness true love, all the while not pursuing any of my own endeavors. I don't know what love will be like for me and the idea of searching for love with someone kind of lets me know that it's okay not to look alone.