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crying i hate all men. don't they know when they are being completely stupid. I especially hate SAM he was my boyfriend. but to tell u the truth i can't hate him even if he did break my heart. he kissed my friend although he says it was an accident but how can that be an accient. i wanted to believe it but he can't even confront me about i had to tell him in his face that i knew. now my heart is in pieces. i am trying really hard to not cry because it would be very embarressing and i want my friends to forget about it just like i want to forget it as well. yesterday was our 3 week aniversary and it really breaks my heart because i still like him is that wrong of my to feel this. he was the first person that i really truly loved outside of my family. i fell for and hard . ihate myself for felling this because does a guy like him deserve forgiveness. does he even deserve that i loved him even though i hadn't said it to him yet. i was wating to have at least a month with him so that i wouldn't sound desperate for attention. i truth is that i don't know who to believe my friend who says he did it on purpose or him who says it was an accident i am truly confused by what is happening and terrible sad I love him but is he worth all this pain
Later cry