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Ever Have one of those dreams that are terrifying when you are in the "dream world" but not so when you writie them down? well I had one last night.

The setting was my old Elememtery school. There is an observetory like place. it looks like a mini vally in the woods with a walk was and stairs going through it. It leads to the school. Well there was a festival going on at the school and Jeniffer, Jessica and myself were playing tricks on the kids walking by. First it was just little costumes and such. Then I was in a costume and had a flaming torch. I was trying to scare people but the fire caught the leaves of bushes and trees. I tried desperetly to put them out but it just kept spreading. I heard screaming and I looked over to where I had left Jeniffer and Jessica and saw a HUGE fire. but i only heard the screams of one person. They were screaming for me. They kept repeating "Chelsea! Chelsea!" So I ran over there. I couldn't get close enough to the fire but there was a rope tied to her leg. For some reason I remembered seeing someone running away and I guessed it was Jessica. I pulled on that rope as hard as i could and pulled the now quiet girl into my arms. I was screaming "Jeniffer! Jeniffer!" but when I had her in my arms it was Jessica. I started crying so hard... my body shook like hell. I climbed the stairs to the school and a teacher wous scolding some kids about playing with fire "you want to set our huge obervatory of fire? huh?" the little kids shook their heads. I screemed out "Its on fire!" still carring Jessica... still crying insanly. Everyone who glanced at the body i was carring threw themselfs against the side of the school as if for support and cried. Every last one of them was a family member. I gripped tighter to Jessica's corps and continued to walk around the building as if looking for someone. I didn't find them before I fell. I tripped on stick and I fell and woke up.

Jessica is my sister.

She died July 2ed 2005

and I had to feel the pain of loosing her yet again