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Ok quick warning to readers: 1. these are old 2. There short 3. I talk alot so if you don't feel like reading that part you don't have to. they'll be in dark blue

<center>Mask
{{Copyright : 2003-2005 by deviantart}
{Copyright : 2003 by the International Library of Poetry as a compilation.}}
both are to me

I'm perpetually wearing a mask hiding

Who I really am.

Only in rare cases others are allowed

To see the real me behind my mask,

It takes a great deal of perceptiveness

To get under my mask. </center>

This is a poem i wrote back in Aug 29, 2003 i do not put the copyrights there to show off or anything. I just wanted people to know if you take it i'll come after you. This poem means alto to me not matter how bad or good you think it is. The reson it means so much to me is becuase it was the frist poem that i was truly proud of. I wrote the poem cause i always felt like i had a makes hiding my realself form people. I don't know if i still feel that way to found that out i would have to have one of my think times.

Oh i have think times because i've relized that if i think all the time about every thing. That i can't deal with it all so i made times for me to think( buy think i mean about deep topics), it seems to work for me i think about till i'm happy with what i've come up with or till i think i have thought it all the way though. Then i either go to sleep or go about my day narmaly. You can say it I'M WEIRD 3nodding i know that.

Can you tell i've been thinking alot? sweatdrop Yeah i had some thinking time to catch up on, it is late and i tend to talk alot and think alot.

<center>They Think
{{Copyright : 2003-2005 by deviantart}}
to me

People think they know who I am

How can they no one has seen all of my sides

So what makes them think they know ME

Some people have seen more than one side

Even though they may have seen a couple sides

They have not seen the real me

A messed up soul.</center>

Belive it or not i dont have much to say. I did not like how people where saying they "knew" me but they really didn't. I don't think that people do that much anymore, if so o'well i've learned that i do it to i was just pussed off that day i guess. Anway i wrote this on Jun 18, 2003

See no long storys or anything smile

<center>War In Me
{{Copyright : 2003-2005 by deviantart}}
to me

there is a war in me that will not stop

it will keep on going till the day i die

all i can do is cry at night

and try not to show people how it makes me feel

but some times the war gets the better of me

and i lash out. </center>

Ok this is a V2 no i'm not going to show you the first one that is why theres a 2 whee well any way i wrote this back in Jul 4, 2003This is about how i deal with the words i hear that I'm not supposed to hear. I found out some evil rumers going around about me when i wrote it.(or i was thinking about when i wrote it)

why must people lie about others whom they mostly likely don't know evil . I had/have some really evil times, but i had/have good friends so i found/find my way though it.

Ok i narmaly don't show sadness like most people(girls mostly stare . i don't think it matters what gender you are.) are suppost to i keep it all in side me and cry later. belive it or not i made myself this way, when i was around 10 i use to run and cry at some of the smallest mean words. Well one day one of my "friends" stare told me we don't like it when you do that. So as the years past i did my best to bottle things up, or turn them in to anger. At times I forget to let it go and I would brake. The funny thing now is that everyone tells me it is not good to do that....hehehe... surprised

Yes that is all you can now go ahead and tell me they suck. All this poem finding and rereading, is making me want to try to write some more, knowing i can't do worse biggrin . I have hypohypno, right now, if you know what that means i give you a pat on your back, here is a hint greel base works xp Oh and if i am not right go ahead and tell me. I know it is not a real work wink , at lest to my knowledge.

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