Today has been really hard for me so far, and I've only been awake for like 3-4 hours. My parents left this morning to go to Formoso.... My mom and dad got in a fight before they even left. I'm really mad at my dad because he basically started it. He is just mad because he has to go there and he doesn't want to. My dad is supposed to come back tonight and my mom and grandma might be spending the night. My mom is so strong when it comes to taking care of our relatives. She says that we can't choose what happens, we just have to make the best of it and do the best we can. It's sad to think that we can't spare our loved ones the pains and uncertaintys of growing old. My dad was mad because my mom thought that they were taking the toyota not the camry and was upset because she had already packed everything into the toyota. He said some things that I won't repeat and got up in my moms face. I was really worried that he might hit her. The thing is that I get more afraid for my mom than I do for myself. I haven't been able to do anything of any good ever since, they went to go pick up my grandma, and then went on. I called my mom because I just couldn't take it anymore, I could tell that I was makeing her upset by asking if she was okay and if he hit her or not. The thing is the threat of being hit is sometimes worse that actually being hit. Every time my dad gets mad he acts like he is going to hit us. He raises his hand and gets in our faces and tells us how horrible we are. And how he has to put up with us. I'm really sick of this s**t. I want to get away from my dad, but I don't want to leave my mom with my dad. She won't leave him either, I've asked. I don't want to leave right now really because I would have to stop going to school just to pay for my living expenses and I don't want to hurt my mom. I don't know what to do.
 Jaded Tatersalad · Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 08:17pm · 0 Comments |
