I got my mom pretty upset yesterday because I told her what me and my therapist were talking about and told her maybe it would be better if I moved out. I don't know where I would go, because wherever I went I would feel like a burden to whomever I stayed with. emo I don't know what to do right now and I feel horrible because I think I made my mom cry, but it is very hard to be around the house waiting for my dad to blow up and being around him when he does blow up. I don;t know if the reason for that affecting me that much is because I'm really sensitive or what. It is really hard for me to make any progress becuase I never feel safe. I know that my parents love me but if really is hard to be around them when they are that way. It makes me sad when I think about moving out because I don't know if I would be allowed to move back in if I had a problem, and my mom is REALLY attached to me, she says stuff like she wouldn't know what she would do if I wasn't there, and then she says that eventually it will be okay if I move out and it is really confusing. I think that Iwould feel horrible if I left because I don't want to hurt my mom. I don't know if my dad would even care. I'm just really mixed up right now, but at least it doesn't shows. I just feel troubled all the time. sweatdrop yes, I know I'm being a drama queen, but it's not on purpose dramallama .
 Jaded Tatersalad · Fri Oct 27, 2006 @ 06:55pm · 1 Comments |
