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Before, I had written a huge entry full of everything that was on my mind. I clicked submit after writing for half-an-hour. It had logged me off. Everything was gone. So, I must rewrite again. Here it goes.
I'm so frikken pissed.
Everything.
School.
Azzy fights.
My ex-best friend.
Etc.
For starters:
Lately, at school I have been becoming short tempered with my work. Though I do not show it outlod, I keep it bottled up inside of me. I usually draw vulgar and vicious doodles to calm me down for that section of the day. I do not know why this has been happening. It just has been. I do not like it one bit. Not at all. All of my teachers seems to be on their periods or something. Even the guys.
As you all know, me and Slaide were about to start a race quest together. We were all going to put all of our gold on our shared mule. We just got into another fight. He has taken her back, though we shared her. I do not know why he is so quick to judge and to strike back with fights. I do not like getting in fights with him. It hurts me. It pains me to fight back at him. All the time just wishing it would stop. In the end, he usually says hes sorry. But...I don't think he will this time. Nor I. For I did not start it. Not to sound pansy or anything...but....yeah.....And I just want to tell him that I'm sorry. And to just come back and to be my friend once again.
I'm also getting VERY VERY VERY angery and quick to tear up with all of Gaia's glitches. I just want to scream and kick, shout, throw my stupid ******** computer, and just lose it. I know they do not mean to...but it happens so very often...
My ex-best friend and I have been friends for as long as 4 years or so. I loved her like a dear sister. But...as soon as we moved on up to a larger school with the rest...she met another girl. In a couple of months...mere months....she dumps me as her best friend, for her. I have tried to talk to her many of times. Plenty. All of them she says that shes sorry and will try and stop ignoring me and such. I do not want her to try! I want her to act! It pains me to see her so much happier with her new friends. She doesn't even see how much it hurts me so. All I can do is burrow my head in sorry in the dear arms of my loyal best friend, Kirsten. ((aka. Saadie.)) I love her dearly. Shes so wonderful. I do not know what I'd do without her. Shes always there. Never to busy to talk to you when you need her. Shes always by my side. Thick or thin. Me and her will last forever. I can always trust her to listen to me. No matter what. I can always count on her for a hug when I need it. For right now.....I need one baddly.
I am in great hopings, that my words in this entry, will keep on of my best friends alive on Gaia. This journal entry depends if he goes or stays. A heavy burde it is to know that my words rest apon the future of me and him and Gaia. I do not want him to go. It seems that all of my friends want to quit. Saadie. Iia((semi)). And now Slaide. If they go, I'll go. No matter how corny it may sound. I want to be with them and o have much in common with them. Gaia truely helped us get closer....but now...they are all going. For what do I have to look forward on Gaia without them? Nothing, I dare say. I do not wish to remain on Gaia if they go. Why must this be? I wish for the good old days. When I was but a mere newb. Along with them. We were always happy and chipper. But now...everything has changed. I rarely have happy moments on Gaia, in which I throughly enjoy to be in. Oh, how I wish to go back.
With this, I begin to end my entry. It is with great sorrow and pain that I do this in not knowing if it will chainge my friends mind or not. I beg of you to stay. Please. For me, my dear. I wish of you...a change of heart and mind. I am sorry. I am truely sorry. Just please...do not go. Regain your strength in friendship with me. Regain our shared mule. Regain everything in your Gaian life.
I hold a deep and dark secret...that I hold within myself and with my friend. We share this secret. I do not know how we can fight, when we clearly mean so much to each other. We do everything together. We know each other well. Maybe to well, as others might say. But we cannot help it. We cannot help our meant-to-be friendship. I only wish that you can see where I'm coming from. Dear, dear....my friend.
I am now ending this...not knowing what is going on is my readers dear minds. I only plead that you do not seek sorry for me. This is not what I need and want to hear, currently.
Thank you all for reading.
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