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Am I so wrong to still think about it? Is anyone even really listening out there? Am I just ruining everyone's life? Everyone just ignores that anything happened and moves on with their daily routine, and all I can do is sit around and stare as it all happens without me. I don't feel anything and all I can think is what did I do wrong? Maybe if I hadn't gotten up, Maybe if I'd taken just a few more pills, Maybe if I'd just taken the knife and made it quick. Maybe