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You knoe when you need a close friend,and you ask for that close friend and they seem to just tell you in many words to ******** off, cuz they have their own issues?

Well I have. And you can cry over it, you can be pissed over it, and you could even hurt yourself over it. But after awhile, you kinda just say fine, and leave it alone. It always happens, but after many times you just kinda snap and had enough and you then lost your best friend. You can only be a shoulder for people to cry on, and an ear fo rpeople to moan and b***h at for only so long. And you try to express in many ways, lik epoems, songs, and even talking, that you are breaking and YOU need help. You give advice and you try to take it, but when you try you are asked for more and more. Trying to be the best person people need and want, but yet thats not the real you, but people dont care, and try to shape you into what they want and need. You try and allow the real you to show through, and yet it gets pushed back where it was. In the darkest, farthest, and smallest corner possible. Getting hurt everyday by people sucks, and thats why you try and find true friends, but when you just finally start to open up-they hurt you even worst than strangers. Never trust those around you-not even the closest ones. Humans are not robots, they have feelings, anything said or done wrong will hurt, maybe not now, but it will sometime. Basicly what I am trying to say is, dont grow up to be alone, old, and in a dirty house with a dozen or more cats. Trust people, but beware of most people. Even thos you knoe for many years. They are the hardest to get over,and you may never, but if it must be done then it must be done.