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meow... ive had some interesting days and though they have all pissed me off theres one thing that made me well more upset then anything else.

Apparently people do not like the fact that i have the respect of a lot of people. And yes it is respect... not fear.... Ive asked to make sure.... Anyways. Recently a lot of people have told me things that others had said to them about me and the group i hang out with. One said that they were tired that people got worried when i was sick. That they were tired of hearing about me. One im not the type of person that tells everyone my problems so what the hell do they know? And two i cant control what people do so whats the point in blaming it on me????? If you dont want to hear about me they why not leave instead of complaining and acting nice to me when you really hate me? id rather that people told me to my face. I can handle that crap even if they dont think i can.
What satrted this small rant? Simple today i was told that some one complained yet again. they said they were tired of people bowing down to me and doing everything i say.... Ok well from what i see not everyone listens to what i say, most of the time they dont... Its a hassle to get people to clean up the area let allone keep them from fighting with others. The people that do listen are doing it because they "know that what im saying is true". Thats at least what everyone said today. They listen cause they dont want to live in their own trash and dont want to fight. I dont need to be there for them to do that. i was just the first person to complain. Im sure if i were to back down another person would do the same.. Most the time i refuse to call myself a leader in the group cause i know people have their own free wills. So whats the point in saying crap like i hate her cause people listen to her? You might as well say i hate her cause she has the respect of her friends. Or i hate her cause she takes care of herself. Why cant people realize that i dont have a magical wand that causes people hell or steals peoples souls when they dont listen to me? I dont control anyone... they control themselves