"Hello, Journal.
My name is Kiyoni Sappheare`. I want to get something off of my chest that just hopped on only moments ago. A friend of mine, not saying any names, would rather choose death than to shame his/herself. Everything that I'm going to say is going to be the truth. Straight from my head and into you, as well as everything else that I shall write. And let me tell you now before I start, I am a black chick straight out the ghetto and I'm very straight forwards. I'll refrain from using the 'N' word... Here I go:
Like I told him/her, I don't see why one would want to kill him/herself if they haven't truely lived out their life. One should want to live life to the fullest and try to find out their purpose in life rather than trying to speed up the inevitable; death. Why would one try and meet God or the Devil so soon? Why not try and find out what it is that they're best at and go with that? What makes someone so guilty and full of shame that they would ever try and kill themself? It's stupid! It's ********' stupid and no one should ever kill themself! Why, most would ask? Wus' the motha ********' reason for killing yourself?! You only get one chance to live! I want to live until I can't live no god damn mo'! I want to live to see what's out there for me! I want to know what it is that I'm capable of. I want to know what can help me become better at what I'm already good at! I want to know all that I can know! I want to learn all of my phsycial abilities! I want to do things I've never done before! I want an adventure! I don't want a knife, gun, or harmful inanimate object to end my life! I want to die of natural causes. I do not fear death, neither do I want it to come in my direction! I'm a blunt a** girl with a lot on my ********' mind that I just have to get out, and this is of the many things that I have stored up there! Why the hell is my friend trying to kill his/herself?! Why choose death over shame?! Shame can be so easily erased, even if it does leave a dark scar on the pale exterior of your heart. So ********' what?! Killing yourself is a punk b***h a** way to get out of something yo' a** can't handle. If you can't handle a situtation, then don't put yo punk a** in it! Excuse my french, but I just have to say this. I can't stand a b***h who would do something like that. Me? I'm Down to Earth, and I will tell whoever like it is; because, I was raised that way. My momma did it to me, as well as my daddy. They taught me what the ******** I was supposed to do in life, and killing myself wasn't none of that s**t! That s**t ain't even in the ********' catagory! So why the ******** do these lil' bitches do it?! Why? Why the ******** do they do it?! I don't know but that s**t fires me up! It makes me cry to know that somebody would so something as stupid as to take their own life! I don't like that s**t! I'd drop a dime on they a** if provided the opportunity to do so. I can't tolerate that s**t! I despise that s**t! I can't stand that s**t! That s**t pisses me the ******** off! I have a hell of a lot more to say, but I don't want to run up the page, so I'm just going to continue it another day. But now ya know one of the many things that irks my nerves and that feeds my evil fuels that brighten up the red flame that has remained dorment for such a long time. For anyone who has the audacity to actually want to take their life... I have a LOT of words for their ears. And by the time that I'm done they're going to need a pack of ice to cool their ears down from the many ears they've recieved. That's the ********' truth fo' yo' a**! I don't play that s**t!"
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