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October 7, 2006
I've told Kaz that I don't want him going to stupid college parties, because I know that they're nothing but trouble. You hear about the kind of crap that happens at those all the time. And I told him I don't want people in his room doing it either. He thinks I'm crazy but the crap finally happened, because people are stupid. Luckily Kaz was in his room like I'd wanted, and not out where things were going on. But it's bad enough that it happened so near him, and it scares me. It's things like this that get so upset to where I just wish he was at home where he's safe. Two people either died or almost died at that thing, one from drinking too much and the other from punching some glass thing and bleeding. And now he's blaming me again, because he thinks if he was out there he could have stopped it from happening. He thinks he can control these idiots. I'm just glad I was able to keep him in his room during all that, or he might have been dead too. He thinks I'm crazy and don't let him do anything and that I take away his freedom but he doesn't realize the kind of crap that can happen and that I do these things for a reason. And now my chances of ever visiting him are ruined because no one's allowed to go to his room either, but it makes me feel a little safer, because at least they can't ever do that again. But what does he do the next day? Let's his friend come over. Well if they arrest his friends like they said they would, it's not my problem. I'm just so tired of him blaming me every time something happens. So if these people die, it's going to be my fault for wanting him to stay in his room and talk to me instead of going out there and doing something stupid himself. I don't even care anymore, let them die. They were stupid, if they were stupid enough to cause their own deaths, then it's their own fault, and they brought it on themselves. They don't deserve to be at college when they don't care obviously, none of those kind of people do. I probably sound like a terrible person, and yes it's awful for someone to die, but really, who's fault is it? Theirs. And I'm tired of people like that. The thing I'm worried about is Kaz. He didn't do anything, stayed in his room and out of the party like he should have, didn't drink, just talked on the computer with me and did his homework. He was doing what was right, but he might get in trouble with the rest of them. I only hope the fact that he wasn't involved will keep him from going to jail or getting sued or something crazy. I just feel like this is one of those stupid "I told you so" situations. I told him this kind of crap can happen, that these stupid parties are bad, and that he should tell people he doesn't want it happening where he lives. And some TV cable he just bought got messed up by these people too, and no one else's stuff did apparently. Well see that's what happens. And now there's nasty blood all in front of his room and I only hope that he isn't having to step in it, the stupid people didn't even clean it up and who knows what kind of nasty diseases an idiot like that would have. Apparently nothing new has happened today, except for one person questioning them. I think Kaz has been just been doing his homework and stuff all day, and so have I. There's just too much of it now, and I'm completely behind in everything. I took time earlier though to go fishing with Eiyma and asked Kaz to come too for a little bit. I had no idea I had so much bait. Dumb Daily Chance. Well at least I know I'll probably never have to pay for tokens or bait again, so that's pretty cool, free games and prizes. I wish they'd fix the casino though, there was no announcement about what's wrong with it or anything, I just don't see it there anymore.
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