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I feel like somedyas i've reacher the lowest of lows and I can't get my self up. I feel like I'm drowning in luke warm water. A sensitive and soothing sense that is slowly killing me and I can't stop it. I miss my friends and i miss my enemies. I miss my life and I don't want to make a new one. I'm still bound to my life in California I'm still wishing to stay there and with every wish is another secound I spend under this figurative luke warm water, but that i would be experiencing infinity as I never stop wishing for my friends and for what I had. I realise this is just a very strong subconcious yearning for familiarity caused my the shock of moving and my stage of maturity that is slowly seeping into my cansious and creating the feeling of being harmed my something that soothes to tell me that while I am in a place where I was happy I am still longing for what I had causing this feeling. Finally, I must end this entry by saying that I am my own Phycologist which makes sense since I'm self efficiant to a fault. I can't help it, it's how I am.