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I do a lot of watching. I watch as friends build relationships, they laugh, they have hard times, they make up, etc. And here I am stuck in neutral. Oh sure there are a lot of gals I like, I feel personally some could work out, but it is always the same story....I am a friend. When it gets right down to it I guess I have no other choice. Sure I want to pursue them, but at the same time I want to respect their wishes no matter what that means for me. I guess I am just too soft and considerate of others feelings, lets face it I give my resources to my friends and leave little for myself. Not being able to meet anyone new also hurts a bit, living just left of the middle of nowhere. Plus a lot of women today are too stuck up for my liking and way too full of themselves. This gets me thinking that maybe I have set my standards too high...but when I look back I dont ask for much. Strong personality, need for companionship, good morale fibers....Yeah maybe I am asking too much. Oh well to anyone reading thanks for listening, maybe one day.............