In the end it doesn't really matter.
Alright- I stopped with the booze and crap- still wanting some but yeah- oh god. I stopped.
I feel like s**t everyday- I wished I could've changed my life in the past...I know I should set it aside though my friends keep talking about the past...soon it hurts me.
I'm a person who always tries to hide the pain and doesn't really like getting questioned by. Now I'm showing pain all across my face- it hurts.
My dad is getting back into hospital, I can't understand my friends and what they want.
I know the world is changing every time. Though the thing is I've changed a lot- even in apperance my friends say. After 2 weeks away from everything I've changed. Where has the happy Eri gone? I don't know.
Gaia has always been a life to me in my heart as well as the world outside. When things turn into reality it pains much more.
I'm leaving Gaia again for a while. I'm sorry to all those out there.
And to the one I started gaia with:
Sorry Howie for being such a cow, I know you've put up with me for 4+ years and we were like bestbuds but it seems now we aren't. I'm sorry. Have fun in college hope to speak to you again- somehow...and change.
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I wish my life was different, I really do. I wished I could've changed what happened.
JaeJoong...your like a clone of Hyung Joo but somereason you hurted me. I saw you as Hyung Joo- and it hurted me. Hyung Joo the reason I thought of JaeJoong might be because of you. It's strange though- confusing. Oh well- who knows? I'll be more open in future.
I'll type more later. Right now I'm escaping death.
Alright- I stopped with the booze and crap- still wanting some but yeah- oh god. I stopped.
I feel like s**t everyday- I wished I could've changed my life in the past...I know I should set it aside though my friends keep talking about the past...soon it hurts me.
I'm a person who always tries to hide the pain and doesn't really like getting questioned by. Now I'm showing pain all across my face- it hurts.
My dad is getting back into hospital, I can't understand my friends and what they want.
I know the world is changing every time. Though the thing is I've changed a lot- even in apperance my friends say. After 2 weeks away from everything I've changed. Where has the happy Eri gone? I don't know.
Gaia has always been a life to me in my heart as well as the world outside. When things turn into reality it pains much more.
I'm leaving Gaia again for a while. I'm sorry to all those out there.
And to the one I started gaia with:
Sorry Howie for being such a cow, I know you've put up with me for 4+ years and we were like bestbuds but it seems now we aren't. I'm sorry. Have fun in college hope to speak to you again- somehow...and change.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I wish my life was different, I really do. I wished I could've changed what happened.
JaeJoong...your like a clone of Hyung Joo but somereason you hurted me. I saw you as Hyung Joo- and it hurted me. Hyung Joo the reason I thought of JaeJoong might be because of you. It's strange though- confusing. Oh well- who knows? I'll be more open in future.
I'll type more later. Right now I'm escaping death.
