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Tired as hell...


And the week's nowhere near over yet. ._.;

Real life activities ~ Schedule's been rough on me... simply because it's the first week of school, I'm having a really tough time adjusting to college life again after such a relaxing time with the family over christmas break.

Still sore as heck after rock climbing Tuesday and working out at the gym Monday night... then the DDR both Tuesday and Wednesday... I'm completely insane, and it's not like I've been able to keep my energy levels up lately. I think I need more sugar in my diet.

I found out that my 6PM class on Wednesdays is actually one of those self-paced courses, so I don't even need to show up every week! All I need to do is take the 5 unit quizzes and the final exam for Stats209, and I'm all done with it! I figure that once I have the statistics book, I can go ahead and finish that off quickly before o-chem and bio take over my life.

If you don't know how to read college schedules, or don't really care about what my days shape up to be, skip ahead to the next paragraph.

Quote:
MF
CH335 1100-1150
BI212 1300-1350

TR
ART115 0900-1150
ECON202 1300-1450
ART205 1800-1920

W
BI212(L) 0800-1050
CH335 1100-1150
BI212 1300-1350
ST209 1800-1950

Need to drive up to Portland with Kathy this Friday... I left my statistics book up there, along with my labcoat. She asked whether she could borrow it so that she didn't have to pay the $17 to get a new one from the bookstore, which is fine with me.

I'm gonna call my parents up tomorrow and tell them I'd be popping by, but we'll see. I don't want to end up stuck in Portland, due to the danger of snow this weekend. Don't know if snowboarding is still on with Jodi... I'm going to have to call her too.

To: Chi and Embie
Subject: DDR hottie *you know who I'm talking about*
Body: *
Ooooh, guess what!! I played DDR with Matt again today, and of course he was still obsessed with AAA-ing Hold onto me. He managed to do it two tries after I left for bio class, but that wasn't the *cute* part. I sat down during a DDR break and cracked out both my CD player and Newtype JPN magazine. He sat next to me and I made a comment that I was working on learning the words to Eternal Snow from Full Moon Wo Sagashite, with me conveniently forgetting that FMWS is his favorite anime series. I start singing without realizing it, and then halfway through the first verse, he comments that I sound really pretty. ^^ Also, while I was reading Newtype, he was leaning right over my left shoulder!! *SQUEE!!!* Needless to say, my day was muchos happier after that!*

Gaia-related activities ~ I have absolutely no energy to be on Gaia anymore. All I do is sign on, see PMs, read and answer, then sign off again. There's simply no point to being on at all. I'm nowhere near motivated enough to touch the GEN, though I'm still working on Scoop.

I am at that point where coming onto Gaia is practically a chore. I know I'm gonna have to force myself to do -something- tomorrow after anime club, but what? I thought my spirit had healed a bit, but apparently, it seems to be as broken as ever. I can't even motivate myself to play Maple Story anymore. I just don't have the energy to waste on such things anymore; not now.

Seeing as I haven't even written what my new years' resolutions are yet, I might as well tell you now.
1- No boyfriends until summer, minimum

2- Reduce the amount of stress in my life

To me, #2 is the big one. How many times have I lain awake at night, worrying about what I had to do for the GEN, worrying about friends, worrying about things I shouldn't have to? Far too many, in my opinion. Again, it's times like these when I wish I could just leave and never come back, but it inevitably sucks me back in again, and I also have that annoying "dedication" trait in me that never lets me leave.

It's a dangerous trend. I love how no matter what I write here, it doesn't affect how friends look at me. I'm thankful that everyone understands that being one active updater out of two makes it really hard on my life, because even to right at this moment, I'm still surprised I hadn't just given up back in September.

What would happen, hypothetically, if I just gave up and left one day, never to return? I think... that people would be sad for awhile, but one can't dwell on the past forever. The whole point of life is moving on, so I can rest assured that I'd be forgotten someday.

Not intending to test that theory out for a long while... or am I?...

*snuggles Trilly*


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  • User Comments: [5]
    Leave Gaia never to return? gonk NUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!! I've been like you, barely on Gaia recently. First due to a family vacation, then getting sick on the flight home. sweatdrop

    As for cute DDR boy, I am not at all surprised that he's flirting with you. wink

    comment ShyRomance · Community Member · Thu Jan 06, 2005 @ 04:39pm
    *Reads thru and finds himself a few things to poke and prod at* Yes you need more sugar in your diet! A granola bar and half a ham sandwich DO NOT qualify as sufficent food before..... I think it was 3 PM. Good to hear you get lots of excercise. Bad to hear you're on the verge of falling apart over it gonk *Reads schedule with his new found..... ability to read xd * You're nuts, seriously. I'm only taking BA-101 at my college, and that already makes me cry xd . Then again today is only the second day of class, so I'm hoping that it manages to get easier. Oh, and when you go to your parents place, you must grab teh Panda Cam *has been perpetually mourning loss of Panda Cam since you went back to your college place*. Grandmama does not like long distance bills anyways, so without Panda Cam I run risk of being decapitated, and Grandmama do it too! *Sad to hear about Gaia =/= good* Wish I could make it better *nod nod*. *Reads new years resolutions* Mikey-kun ish going to have to drag his arse out there sooner than planned if you so stressed. This whole being stressed out ish not approved by teh Mikey-kun, and thus ish not muy bueno, and must be fixerated. *Clings to Panda-chan* I'd miss you if you left, Mikey-kun would miss you LOTS!



    *points up at his post* This is the cleaned up version! I'm calling you ASAP, despite risk of decapitation!

    comment Empyrial Entity · Community Member · Thu Jan 06, 2005 @ 06:12pm
    That explains why you've been avoiding conversation with me... Unless there is a different reason...


    MF
    CH335 1100-1150
    BI212 1300-1350

    TR
    ART115 0900-1150
    ECON202 1300-1450
    ART205 1800-1920

    W
    BI212(L) 0800-1050
    CH335 1100-1150
    BI212 1300-1350
    ST209 1800-1950



    Monday/Friday
    Chem 335 11:00am-11:50am
    Bio 212 1:00pm-1:50pm

    THursday
    ART115 9:00am-11:50am
    Economics202 1:00pm-2:50pm
    ART205 6:00pm-7:20pm

    Wednsday
    Bio 212(L) 8:00am-10:50am
    Chem 335 11:00am-11:50am
    Bio 212 1:00pm-1:50pm
    ST209 6:00pm-7:50pm



    I am unsure what your last on Wedsnday is... But if I am correct thats what your schedual is?

    comment Yitty-chan · Community Member · Fri Jan 07, 2005 @ 05:28am
    Poor stressed-out Aqua ;^; *hugs* I don't understand why you view your GEN updating duties as iron clad...it's volunteer work and if you don't feel like doing it for a while that's perfectly okay. Chibigreen hasn't really been doing much to help support the workload (at least not that I know of)...ask her to take over the burden for a while and just come on Gaia to have fun or talk with friends.

    But I guess the problem is we just need more updaters @__@;; I'm afraid I don't really know much about the process though...and I'm not sure if I'd be reliable enough even if I did.

    Aiya. It's just a bad situation...hmm...


    comment Celesse · Community Member · Sat Jan 08, 2005 @ 04:56am
    I'm back at college myself now, though your schedule is a lot nicer than mine gonk Up at 8 am everyday.... the only nice day really is friday where I have only one class (albeit at 9:05 ._.) and I don't work either. Ah well.

    'Tis good to hear more news about teh adventures of Aqua and DDR Man. It's always wonderful to have people around that make you feel good (and them being pretty damn hot is a great bonus >_> wink

    So many people have been leaving and taking breaks from Gaia lately, I wouldn't blame you at all if you did. Hell, right now, you sound like how I've been xd Mainly PMing back and forth, checking journals, and every once and a while guilds and the Q&F. I keep meaning to make my DJ Quest thread, and it just keeps getting pushed behind. Ah well. I lack too motivation, and I don't really have the time to work towards earning them anyway.

    Stress is always a killer, so good luck with that whee I have my Marc ad my smokes to keep me in check, so all is (usually) well, though I may be getting a roommate x_x; (Marc says he mostly just adds to it, but he's a ******** liar).

    In any case, take care of yourself, and I hope to be able to talk to you soon.

    comment Priestess Lucia · Community Member · Tue Jan 11, 2005 @ 04:01am
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