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I had a whole write-up about how SakuraCon went... but I can't post it. Need to re-edit.
However... to the reasoning behind the title of this entry. Why is it called "worthless"?
Because I am, what else?
I've been doing a lot of introspection lately, and came to the conclusion that in fact, I haven't actually been doing anything at all, and that all my modding... is for naught. I don't have the intuitive ability to do these things like a couple of the other omnis... Really, I'm ineffective and the cases I do... I don't know what I was going to say anymore.
Just that scatterbrained, I guess.
I asked someone how bad was the GD queue. Wanna know? Tuesday the 28th of MARCH. At least as a dedicated mod, I was able to do something, but as an omni, when hack/scams take up so much energy, I don't have time for anything else.
The GEN. I missed doing that so much sometimes... but being a mod just sucks most of my time and energy right out. At least I have the event items update ready for tomorrow's posting.
I'm a worthless owner. I shouldn't even be called that because, seriously, what type of owner gives up all that she worked hard on to be a mod at the drop of the proverbial hat?
I'm a worthless omni. I can barely do 5 cases in one sitting before I'm so drained of energy that I can't do anymore, instead pick through my ever-growing PM box trying not to drown.
I'm a worthless person. At work, I dance around, smiles on my face and talking all-high-ish, when all it is is a facade so that I 1) don't come off as threatening, 2) look cute and sound cute, and 3) hiding all of the emotions I feel behind a mask so that I don't get a bad review.
I just am, there's no way around it.
SakCon synop in a week.
 Aquafire · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 08:40am · 19 Comments |
