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You know, before Pennsic, I was ok. I hadn't had sex in almost a year so I was past the antsy s**t. But then I had to whore it up in Pennsylvia a few weeks ago and now I am a quivering ball of sexual frustration. I found myself sizing up people I'm not even attracted to. I swear to GOD, I'm like an addict lookin for another hit.

What would my priest think? lol

So Lately, I have been sorta torn between 2 guys. I am interested in both. But I can't tell if there is a genuine interest or I am just looking to get laid and would form a relationship to appease my already battered conscious. I mean the whole reason I stopped having sex a year ago was because I wanted to actually be in a relationship. I didn't want to be a party favor anymore. And it was tough then but I was still so heartbroken over my ex that I didn't even notice the sexual stuff. Well, I am noticing it now and it sucks.

Guy #1 is definately interested in me. We have a lot in common, and a few things we are in definate opposition over (I'm a smoker and he's not. I'm into BDSM and he's not).

Guy #2 is more attractive than Guy #1 but I don't know him as well. What we have talked about (mostly sex), we seem to be on the same wavelength. But like I said I don't know him that well. I don't know if he is interested or just flirting to flirt. I don't even know if he has a girlfriend already.

So you can see my problem. If either guy were to ask me out I would go. Guy #2 is more my type but I can talk to Guy #1 for literally hours. I'm not even sure if I want advice. I think I am more venting but outside views would be nice. In the meantime, I gotta figure out a way to get over the sexual frustration because I don't want to just have sex with a random guy but my hand is starting to cramp up.